About John_Doe


I'm 43, straight, disabled, and enjoy writing poems, often dark about love lost and my feelings towards my disability, shame and loneliness of who I am.

I am very shy, and most of that is due to the fact I do have a disability (hands/arm). Behind the shyness is a guy with a loving, lonely, caring soul who would like to be only friends with people who don't judge others.

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North Yorkshire, United Kingdom
Local Time:
26 Mar 2017 06:22
Enjoy writing poems (often are quite dark in tone due to my disability, loneliness etc). Stories occasionally. Watching tv and movies.
Favorite Books:
Fiends by Richard Laymon. A Hellbound Heart (Hellraiser) by Clive Barker.
Favorite Authors:
Clive Barker.
Favorite Movies:
Fan of too many to name, fantasy, sci-fi, action, emotional, comedy, old b&w comedy, feel good movies etc.
Favorite Music:
Within Temptation, Sarah McLachlan, Aerosmith, The Pretty Reckless.


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Piece of String

Friendship is like a piece of string There's a beginning, middle, and end to it It starts with a smile, then loving hugs of sweet words Slowly drifting towards a deep sadness of goodbyes Tears that fall from betrayal, or something simple like silence Forcing you to sever all ties with the other If only for your own sanity and well-being To cut the string in two, clutching one piece as a...

Added 23 Mar 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 1 | Avg Score 5 | Views 32 | 1 Comment

The Smiling Mask

This smiling mask I wear Upon my face for you all to see Hides the anguish beneath And the swelling tears in my eyes When I look in the mirror It's not the one you see before you But the real face beneath And that truly scares me The harsh cold that surrounds me Of loneliness and that sense of fear Fills my mind with bad thoughts Of pain and suffering I've endured This path I find...

Added 19 Mar 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 3 | Avg Score 5 | Views 47 | 2 Comments


Like a foolish little schoolboy Smitten by his first love I find myself waiting each day In the hope, I'd hear from you But you're never there Except in my lonely head Strange voices that whisper to me Telling me bad things My heart feels emptiness On those long, lonely nights Without hearing from you I believe you have forgotten me Just to hear from you Brings a smile upon these lips...

Added 14 Mar 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 4 | Avg Score 5 | Views 69 | 3 Comments


The story you are about to read contains mature content that some may find offensive. By choosing to read this piece, you agree that you are 18 or older and do not object to this content.    I wonder often, what do you all think of me To suffer in pain, many would agree I have fought back tears, crying for endless days Looking out into the wonder, as I sit and gaze All those words...

Added 03 Mar 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 5 | Avg Score 5 | Views 48 | 4 Comments

The Portrait

Your face is captured like a painting Hanging upon my wall To admire the true beauty you possess That stole my beating heart Each vivid color seeps into others Creating a new design of wondrous expression Brushstrokes that wash across your soft pink skin Eyes that draw you in, no matter where you stand Those sweet ruby lips so finely drawn Glistening of the soft kisses we once enjoyed...

Added 27 Feb 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 5 | Avg Score 5 | Views 53 | 3 Comments

Sweet Goodbyes

I cried that day, as you passed away In my arms, where you did lay The warmth of your body, on those long cold nights The feel of your love, as we cuddled up tight You were my love, my hope, always there for me And I was there for you when you'd want me to be That sadness in your eyes, as you close them tight I whisper to you, your final goodnight Hugs, words, nothing will ease this pain...

Added 23 Feb 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 3 | Avg Score 5 | Views 53 | 2 Comments


The silence is what I hear every day Unbroken sounds of whispers being heard from a distance Voices of those I long to hear, yet are always so far away A sound, a smash, or even a hello from a stranger to make the pain go away Yet each day returns to the beginning Like a never ending circle of unforgiving torment  ...

Added 07 Feb 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 6 | Avg Score 5 | Views 56 | 4 Comments

Voices In My Head

I hear the voices in my head They speak to me, wishing me dead A gun, a knife, or even some rope Because this life I live, is growing hard to cope Pain and suffering, torture and guilt Crimson tears, that I have spilt Waterfalls falling, from within my eyes Of wishes to be different, a human disguise They scream at me, voices so loud Impossible to hear my own, from inside the crowd Man,...

Added 31 Jan 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 3 | Avg Score 5 | Views 56 | 2 Comments

Breaking Free

I felt locked away, in a room with no windows, no door, no escape Pounding upon the padded walls, silent echoes of my screams Rainbow drops of tears sliding down my cheek, splashing upon the cold hard concrete floor Weary eyes drowning the sorrows of pain into darkness of sleep each night Lost in my own mind, of mazes and unforgiving torture of my own mistakes Until that crack that...

Added 29 Jan 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 4 | Avg Score 5 | Views 81 | 3 Comments

Dear God!

Dear God Is it too much to ask for companionship in this life As I walk this path of loneliness you dealt for me While you look down from above Someone to hold my hand, kiss my lips To smile and assure me compassion To show me the meaning of love With every beat of my fluttering heart With your own hands you created this imperfection This monstrosity I see everyday in the mirror Eyes that...

Added 03 Dec 2015 | Category Poetry | Votes 5 | Avg Score 4.6 | Views 178 | 4 Comments

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