The choice laid before me,
Is what I now face.
To turn and face demons,
Or enter the race.
The demons they haunt me,
They taunt and they scream.
They tease and they cripple,
And invade all my dreams.
Lust is forbidden,
For with it comes pain.
Loving is costly,
Can’t do it again.
Remember the heartache?
The tears and despair?
To open my soul,
To say that I care?
The scars are still healing,
The wounds are still fresh.
Each day that I hide them,
The hurting is less.
My heart closes up,
Not a soul enters in.
No one to hurt me,
Nothing to win.
When demons prevail,
The darkness takes over.
When demons prevail,
Only sorrow to live over.
My soul, it grows cold,
Aching to share.
My heart, it is yearning,
Love belongs there.
I want to be whole,
To feel it once more.
I live for the moment,
To open the door.
To peek through the crack,
To see glimpse of light.
To yell ‘I am back!’
And feel I’m alright.
The feeling returning,
The warmth enters slowly.
The first step so cautious,
I’m still oh so lonely.
The smiles as they greet me,
From strangers and friends,
Welcome me home,
They help me to mend.
Each step becomes bolder,
Each stride hits the floor.
My mind it reminds me,
I’ve been here before.
My heart guarded tightly,
By walls that I built.
Protecting emotions,
Still feeling the guilt.
Time heals all wounds,
And thus time, it will take.
To put pieces together,
One heart it will make.
I’ve entered the race,
Put demons behind me.
Surrendered to love,
Hoping it finds me.
Forward I venture,
Following the pack.
Enjoying the feeling,
Knowing I’m back.
The decision is made,
The Demons still exist.
I'll push them away!
No more pain,
I insist!
The warmth surges through me,
No more emotions to hide.
The wind in my face,
Reminds me , I’m alive.
The race, not to win,
Not even to place.
The race is to finish,
And finish with grace.
Love, it will find me,
I know that it will.
It runs right beside me,
Pushes me up the last hill.
When I get to the top,
Love will reveal,
It’s been with me all the while,
Love, it is real.
So armed with this thought,
I step out again, anew.
To race with all others,
To find what is true.
Love hurts, and love heals,
Love swoons and it scars.
Love leaves you, Love finds you,
Love lives in the stars.
I open my heart,
I open my soul.
Love lives in my being,
Love will make me whole.
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