About John_Doe


I'm 45, straight, disabled, and enjoy writing poems, often dark about love lost and my feelings towards my disability, shame and loneliness of who I am.

I am very shy, and most of that is due to the fact I do have a disability (hands/arm). Behind the shyness is a guy with a loving, lonely, caring soul who would like to be only friends with people who don't judge others.

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North Yorkshire, United Kingdom
Local Time:
19 Jun 2021 02:13
Enjoy writing poems (often are quite dark in tone due to my disability, loneliness etc). Stories occasionally. Watching tv and movies.
Favorite Books:
Fiends by Richard Laymon. A Hellbound Heart (Hellraiser) by Clive Barker.
Favorite Authors:
Clive Barker.
Favorite Movies:
Fan of too many to name, fantasy, sci-fi, action, emotional, comedy, old b&w comedy, feel good movies etc.
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Favorite Music:
Within Temptation, Sarah McLachlan, Aerosmith, The Pretty Reckless.


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03 Jun 2012
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Spiders Web

Entangled within Your spiders web No Escape Entranced by your eyes Consuming my Lost Innocence Writhing upon my bare skin The succubus of your Naked body Your lips close to my own Stealing my last Breathe You caught me Both heart and soul Forever yours  ...

Added 21 Feb 2019 | Category Poetry | Votes 1 | Avg Score 5 | Views 681


This strange feeling inside It's so hard to explain Turmoil and torment Making my head spin Despite my compassion and honesty Trying hard to make others feel good about themselves I often retreat to my lonely pathetic world I live in With a sense of shame and tears swelling from my eyes Violently wanting to throw up To escape this sense of loneliness Seeking comfort and friendship from...

Added 16 Apr 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 1 | Avg Score 5 | Views 530 | 1 Comment


Like a waterfall crashing down a never-ending stream of tears a hollowed chest where once a heart beat stood hangs a vacated sign love is all he sought someone to hold him tell him all will be alright a woman of any description to speak tender words an angel wings so black cold running through his veins now voices whisper within his broken mind such bad words crimson seeps from wounds...

Added 10 Apr 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 1 | Avg Score 5 | Views 930

Dark Angel of Death

Like a fool I was taken in by your tenderness believing your sweet words of unforgiving lies This jester's outfit I now wear in shame belittled by your charms beaten by your evil mind Tears spread like oceans waves of emotions crashing inside my body making me think bad things Your words of hatred spread invisible marks upon this demonic skin I wear Shaming me of the man I see in the...

Added 07 Apr 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 2 | Avg Score 5 | Views 951 | 2 Comments

The Fool

I'm tired of being made a fool of those silent nights making my mind think terrible words a friendship blossoming but just like the flowers that grow with water it all withers and dies in the end words once spoken of opening oneself to a brave new world of someone's life blackened by the darkness encountered saying hello is hard for someone like me to master such bravery goodbyes are...

Added 03 Apr 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 3 | Avg Score 5 | Views 846 | 1 Comment


I feel like a Dali painting my image warped by your own imagination Imperfection of this body desecrated with scars crafted by your own torturous mind Time melting winding back to forgotten days words spoken and virtual hugs we shared Memories soon fade like forging fire into ash which you silently blow away What once we had has slowly disappeared of a friendship separated by oceans wide...

Added 30 Mar 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 2 | Avg Score 5 | Views 659 | 2 Comments

Medusa Of Dance

Like many others before Her dancing mesmerized me Left comatose by the way she moved Floating across the floor like an Angel Captivated by her swaying hips The music soothing my soul Becoming dazed in an induced trance Each shake a drum to the beat of my heart Her beauty was matched by her eyes Enticing men to worship at her feet Turning them to stone with just one look This Medusa of...

Added 28 Mar 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 3 | Avg Score 5 | Views 618 | 3 Comments

Piece of String

Friendship is like a piece of string There's a beginning, middle, and end to it It starts with a smile, then loving hugs of sweet words Slowly drifting towards a deep sadness of goodbyes Tears that fall from betrayal, or something simple like silence Forcing you to sever all ties with the other If only for your own sanity and well-being To cut the string in two, clutching one piece as a...

Added 23 Mar 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 3 | Avg Score 5 | Views 810 | 3 Comments

The Smiling Mask

This smiling mask I wear Upon my face for you all to see Hides the anguish beneath And the swelling tears in my eyes When I look in the mirror It's not the one you see before you But the real face beneath And that truly scares me The harsh cold that surrounds me Of loneliness and that sense of fear Fills my mind with bad thoughts Of pain and suffering I've endured This path I find...

Added 19 Mar 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 3 | Avg Score 5 | Views 763 | 2 Comments


Like a foolish little schoolboy Smitten by his first love I find myself waiting each day In the hope, I'd hear from you But you're never there Except in my lonely head Strange voices that whisper to me Telling me bad things My heart feels emptiness On those long, lonely nights Without hearing from you I believe you have forgotten me Just to hear from you Brings a smile upon these lips...

Added 14 Mar 2017 | Category Poetry | Votes 1 | Avg Score 5 | Views 660 | 1 Comment

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