Where is this place where all my smiles have hidden?

Where all my laughter is banished to a place forbidden.

What is this loss I can’t quite name?

Where all my days and nights look just the same.

And what is this need that confuses me so?

Wasn’t it her who said she must go?

What of this hurt in my heart and my mind,

Where anger dwelled and turned me so blind.

What is this ache I feel so way deep inside?

In my chest so heavy as if my heart has died.

What of this want that I keep her things near,

Her pillow.. her brush.. all of her that’s left I fear.

I was a fool to let her slip through my arms.

Deaf to her needs I missed all the alarms.

And why do I hide.. should I stand and be strong?

Even though I’m the cause of all that went wrong.

Four letter words I never want to hear again.

Especially love.. the bringer of pain.