If I were not hard to please or too aloof to say the least

If I were to care less with judgements to be at ease

If I were too insensible to notice or deaf and blind to see

If I were strong enough but no, my heart crumbles to hear thee

And now I am wishing I was a person who is far from me

Then, I would have never tried holding back my tears

I would have never have even to wipe it dry

I would have never have to hear re-echoes sauntering by

I would have never doubted myself like what I am doing now

I would have never tried to shut the world again

I know I look like I am someone tough and strong like embers and diamonds

But deep inside I am a bomb that ticks and explodes

I self-destruct and I lose my hold on what I am

Now I am back again on square one

Now I am running back from the zone that comforts me

Now I am convinced to close my doors to hide so nobody could hurt me again

In here, I am safe

With these walls I fell unsusceptible by the lies spoke upon

The words that crippled me like knives

The stares that made me feel uneasy

The whispers that broke my heart