I looked into the mirror today and saw how hallow I looked. It has been a while since my skin lost its tanned skin into a pale white of no return.The bag over my eyes looking as bad as it ever going to get. My dark brown eyes seem to have lost its shine for fun and adventure. Then I start thinking to myself when was the last time I actually enjoyed going out with my friends and doing our usually crazy stuff. When did I do my paperwork and not wish to burn it to the ground. I was never like this for a long period of time but it is longer then before. Why do I feel like the time is just going to keep flying by before I get better. What if I don't ever get better again. What if it gets worst instead. What if? What if?... I know that I want to get better but a little part of me just doesn't even want to try anymore. I actually really don't know what I really want. I am just so sleepy I don't want to get up from bed anymore. Sigh, just give me a little more time to heal and I will get back to you on that.