Had I known your friendship had conditions

I would not have been your friend.

Had I known you would not ever try to listen

I would not have put effort to speak.

Had I known you would use every excuse 

I would not have expected more from you

You want to say I lead you on

You want to say I used you

You want to say I'm wrong

You want to say that I should talk to you

And yet all I did was talk to you

And yet all I did was hold you accountable 

And yet all I did was be patient with you

And yet all I did was give all I could

I will not let myself be disrespected

When you want to joke at my expense.

I will not let myself fall back into who I was

When you could not handle accountability.

I don't owe you anything

No, not even an explanation 

I don't control your actions

No, I am not at fault for others either.

Had I known your friendship was toxic

I would not have been your friend

Had I known you would have become obsessive

I would not have been complacent. 

Had I known you would only care when you were hurt but not me.

I would not have been there in the first place.