I'm afraid I have to sit corrected on something else.

Turns out WL is returning on March 13 instead of the sixth so there's actually sixteen days to go before I see my Jane, not nine like I originally thought.

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Elyse, you have great taste in crushes - you pick my favorite actors. Oldman, Rickman. If you start crushing on Sam Rockwell (one of my very faves) I may begin to suspect you have a spy in my household.

No, I'm definitely not into him, don't worry.

...and in other news, twelve days to go and then I'll finally see my Jane again.

So, I'm afraid I have to sit corrected in terms of how long I've been in and out of love with Alan cause I finally remembered why and how I discovered him.

When the fifth Harry Potter movie came out in 2007, I was in love with Gary Oldman and because of what happens at the end, I started to use Sevvus as a distraction from that - only it worked too well cause by the time the sixth movie was out two years later (2009), I was in it for Alan.

Tldr; it's been thirteen years, not ten like I'd originally thought whoops. 💚🖤

Thirteen days to go until I can jump into Jane's arms at long, long last.

...and I may have just made an inhuman noise after seeing that Xfinity has WL listed. She's really, truly coming home and I can't wait...but I have to.

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A love triangle between an amateur writer, a popular American actor turned game show host, and a renowned British actor could make for an entertaining, if offbeat, rom-com. 😊

No love triangles here since I'm polyamorous but I see what you mean.

I'd say this isn't me losing it over the fact that WL (and Jane) will be returning to my screen on March 6, but then I'd be lying. In other words, one month till I get to leap into her arms for some long overdue snuggles.

(I might be a bit excited.)

Maybe it's just the fact that I'm such a hopeless romantic, but very few things make me melt faster than the thought of Alan calling me little one and/or child as terms of endearment and comfort.

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LOL. Twitter is scary sometimes, eh. It's the only social media I use.

...well, I was amused more than anything but yeah.

That moment when twitter knows too much. I -

I - all I have to do is think about Alan and my entire body becomes tingly and my tummy fills with butterflies, even after ten years.

Honestly, I love you has never been and will never be enough where he's concerned. In fact, it almost seems like an insult cause the words I need don't exist.

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Ho. Ho. Ho. Now I have a machine gun shaped cookie.

Sorry Elyse. I was thinking of changing my avatar to Hans Gruber, but I didn't want to freak you out.

Probably for the best that you didn't, yeah, since I don't share Alan very well (read: I don't share him at all).

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Did Alan ever do any audiobooks? I suspect he would be great narrator.

Not officially, but he did narrate (and star in) The Song of Lunch and a few other things.

Oh, and on today's episode of "Things That Shouldn't Sound Like Poetry," his description of piss from said short film.

I would spill salad dressing on my shirt while watching Alan.

Especially when I've finally found something that fits the delicate balance between wanting to see him and wanting to listen to his voice.

I didn't think ghosts could even wear handcuffs.

I had a stroke of inspiration (or maybe I should say Joshpiration) last night:

https://www.storiesspace.com/stories/poetry/pretty-boy

No, I didn't die, but I did come full circle. Now I know why I was feeling so empty inside.

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There is no Matt. There is only Zuul.

Sorry E, couldn't resist (it's an old Ghostbuster reference you might be WAY too young for).

...if you hadn't told me that, I wouldn't have known cause I've never seen Ghostbusters (original or remake).

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He could probably use a hug right now from what I have heard.

Head empty. No thoughts; only Matt.

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About my steamy tryst with ... 😳 ... oh, about your new interest. Sorry. Carry on. Forget I said anything.😊

...well, I guess the secret's out.

Not me torn between wanting to tell y'all who I'm into in addition to Jane and not wanting people to laugh or think I'm strange.

EDIT: If you saw who it is on the red side, this post isn't for you.

Those eyes, those dimples, their sweet, shy smile - oh my god I can't.

🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

Well, I mean, that's not why I'm embarrassed. I'm embarrassed cause of who it is, not cause I have feelings for them.

Not me realizing I might be attracted to somebody else in addition to Jane, I swear. Nor is it me feeling embarrassed over it.

That awkward moment when it's been so long since you've been on here that you have to reset your password - aka what happened to me a bit ago.

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Not sure if wishing a happy anniversary for an unrequited love is appropriate but hope you found some joy in the day. Remember that "forever" is a very long time (not my line but I forget who I nicked it from).

As of today, I've loved Jane for an entire year (although it feels like a lot longer). 

No words in any language can describe the way I feel about her or the way her existence warms my heart. I...I want to love her forever.

By way of pillows, yeah, cause I have my throw pillow but I also have a body pillow with Jane on too.

My bed was already my safe place, but that feeling has only deepened now that half of it is Jane in some way.