Backwards..

I start from the night

Sleep walking from the fridge, backwards…

Back in bed, in the blankets

I sleep eight hours back, I’m setting my alarm

Shower

Shower before I sleep right?

Looking at the floor, blood stains dissolving, what the fuck happened?

Backwards right? My wound?

I start the shower, walking out it backwards to the mirror

Blood stain, I draw a smiley face in blood on the mirror

Am I a killer? Let’s go steps backwards.

Back to the living room, back to the car driveway.

Back into traffic, back into my driveway.

Back into my bed, back to that text.

“Pick up”

Back to the internet, back to the telly

Back to the weather channel, back to my shocked reaction.

Back to the spinning globe in my office

Back to that funny page on facebook, back to that funny meme I forwarded.

Forward…

I send that funny meme, you didn’t respond.

Turned on the telly, changing channels till the weather channel.

My shocked reaction.

I reschedule my flight.

Forward to my bed, forward to my text.

“Pick up, I’m coming over”

Forward to my driveway, forward through the traffic, your driveway…

Into the living room, I see clothes

You have company?

Forward up the staircase, back down the staircase

Into the wine cellar, I drink as my make up is stained in tears

Forward a couple of shots, forward a couple of glasses.

Forward to my new found confidence.

Into the car, into the boot, into the bag, I pull out a gun…

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Back into my bed, I toss and turn.

Chuckle and plan this out in a different way

I see the future backwards….