I went too far when I stripped myself of dignity and pride

I went too far when I began knifing my pain into a bleeding puddle

Just so I could compete for your affection

So engulfed by you that I was willing to harm my sanity

Into body dysmorphism

I would kneel and wash your feet with my tears

Kissing your hands as if it was a rite

I went too far when I sold myself, cheaply

When I gave my soul wholeheartedly to the grim reaper

It was a bittersweet taste of regret

I went too far when I forgave so easily

When you drunk love my best friend on my birthday

The worst betrayal

I went too far when I wanted to plunge into the abyss of Hell

Or kiss Lake Victoria

I went too far when I lost me

I lost individuality

I went too far when I morphed into suicide

I went too far when I became a soul revenger

I became just like you.

© Christena Williams