The colors have now faded,

My life has turned to grey,

I created my own prison,

I pay the price every day,

Day after day,

I am staring at the ceiling,

I remind myself to breathe,

Maybe I'm just dreaming,

I try to wash it away,

I'm having trouble breathing,

Everything goes black,

Suddenly I'm screaming,

Why did I survive,

That overdose that December,

I'll never forget,

The things I can't remember,

How am I this high,

I've never felt so low,

How can I be lost,

When I have nowhere to go.