He reminded me of beauty; That place I wanted to go Again and again and again. …It looked he weaved it in his hands; I wanted to look at him from afar And feel inside me that need to develop; To get in a better place, From where I were;

I was in the mood for; That evening. I wanted to be in a motel room, Where I had just finished the first sexual act; Lightning a cigarette; Seeing the smoke. And myself naked in the mirrors; Waiting for the next one;

much the dew clinging to grass dawn’s breath on the clover diamond’s without gruff sparking the wind chimes in the autumn’s glades as the sun begins to climb a familiar face to see a hello a new day to live as you take the first day walk smooth and bitter in autumn Collaboration with Atticus Abbey

You said I miss you And I did not believe it I do not know what is the matter But I feel unlovable these days If only you knew how lovable you are How big of a mark you leave on me Like a jagged twisted bloody scar That I display proudly for the world to see You think that you are not missed? Why is it you do not understand? I would lay down my life for a chance to be kissed I would give you the world if it meant I could...

I wish I was your bottle of whisky So that being a heavy drinker you are You would consume me every time She says she wants to be consumed But I dare not drink her Because I am already doomed Maybe she was intrigued by some words that she read Maybe she wants just a glimpse into the darkness hidden in my head Maybe she gets turned on when I write and scream and cuss Maybe some day her and I will just become us Maybe... ju...

Paff puff I smoke you like a cigarette Paff puff And then again paff puff I am addicted to you.

coined by night with closing of eyes shadows fall with a hush of silence and weightless gravity incognito of the dark fading to indigo bleeding into the sheets of the quiet abyss dissolving into nocturnal dreams the dreams of yesterday, today and tomorrow. chewing eternity in the mouth. felt always bitter and sweet oh so sweet. Collaboration with Atticus Abey

As time slips away falling a pocketful of sand in gravity between my fingers of thumb and memory lost in temporary like a clockwork ticking measured in hours among the stones leaving only dust and schizophrenia with ghosts in my Lenovo as time slips away falling listening to the Rorschach echo, “Jack be nimble, Jack be quick” It is the echo of city, be like that, be like this. As I drift slowly on the narrow streets. The...

The albatross ‘victor’ Gets up in the morning And does wing-exercising; Rain is not stopping him this morning; He has done it repeatedly, On rainy and sunny days; He flaps his big wings against the strong winds, Hops in the air And falls back on the ground; Flaps his big white wings another time And hops back to the ground; The albatross has a clear set goal in his head; He aims at learning to fly; One day he knows, he wi...

The woman; I wanted to see her on a costume; Wearing clothes That were made for the chief of astronauts; Clothes that reminded you There is no time, Time is running out; You ought to put all that strength And concentration on your will And fulfill it; Make it done;

On the list of memories; All kept as files on my head; Today the drawer opened And I got reminded of you; And …Of course … I got reminded of that taste … In my mouth, …When I tried to taste you. .. I got reminded of How it turned out, You were oranges and apricots, But of course made of plastic;

Oh to see your cute dimples pretty face and sweet voice Another time.

I see the corner of the room You are not there Instead there is a hollow The same old song Loneliness.

You look at me But see through me I guess my clock is ticking.

I ran out of writings Back in my shell Counting the seconds When I will hear her nocturnal voice again.