Mommy, I am so very sorry

Please don't be mad when he wakes next to me

I know you see the way he looks at me

I know it makes you so very angry

I know I deserve it when you punish me 

You told me he's weak when it comes to me

I tried to say no like you told me

I tried to be strong, but he got mean

I know you pretend not to see

When he sneaks back to your room when you're asleep

Please don't be disappointed in me

I promise to try harder just wait and see

Maybe it would be better if you had never had a baby

You said it was better before you had me

It was just you and him and you were happy

But now he only plays with me

At least, when he's mad he turns to me

At least, it's not you he hurts, it's me

You said you are going to get rid of me

I heard it when you told Daddy

And then he got mad and came to me

I tried to pretend I was fast asleep

But he was too mad and I was too weak

I wonder where you will send me

I hope things are better without me

I love you so much Mommy

I hope you are happy just you and Daddy

I only worry about one thing

What will happen when he gets angry

Who will he turn to without me

I hope it will just make you happy

It has been years since I read this diary

My heart hurts for the little girl in me

Mom did send me away just after this entry

But it didn't help her and daddy

He left shortly after me

I went to live with my auntie

She had been there for me since the beginning

I am now twenty-three

I am packing my things getting ready to leave

For I got a scholarship for my poetry

That is when I found this old diary

My past is still a part of me

But I am proud to say that I am happy

I wrote this letter to all those like me

I want you to all know you can be happy

You can overcome and find victory

Please try, but not for me

Do it for all you dream to be