I wish you were made of starlight.
Or found with fireflies.
I wish you were right
And my mind wouldn’t lie.
I can do a fair amount of CBT
To rework the script in my head
But it will still treat me unfairly
While I lay in bed.
On days you drown yourself in doubt
And call on me to deconstruct your brain
And we hang out for hours talking about
How our brains like to accept the blame
Those are the night the lies are soft and sweet
And sleep feels like protection.
The anxiety takes a momentary backseat
To the friendly affection.
I wish you were happy and free
From all that weighs you down.
I wish your laugh was a guarantee
I wish more than anything that you want to stay around.
Until that day, I’m happy to sit with you
And talk about ridiculous and profound
And deconstruct the damaging points of view
That keep circling around.
Neither of us expected a friend
And I don’t know if it’s mutual or not
It doesn’t matter in the end
I’m thankful for all your friendships brought.