paulus

13 Dec 2014

Slow Motion

Slow motion. I can see that 9mm of lead traveling towards my face in slow motion. I know, that I should duck, or step aside, to let it travel past me, but I can't. As if I'm frozen. As if my body is caught in the same slow motion as that bullet coming my...

paulus

12 Dec 2014

Storm

The slate grey clouds are running 'cross the skyWhile hail and rain bombard the ground belowAnd lightning bolts illuminate the showAs howling winds attempt to make me fly The cattle taking refuge where they canWild creatures hide in shelter, yet they know...

paulus

10 Dec 2014

Christmas dinner

He wanted it with her....

He woke up ecstatic, he felt so wonderful! He wasn't going to have that same old boring Christmas dinner with his parents. No, he was going to buy HER, that beauty he brought home, a fancy dinner. Remembering last night, he turned around, seeking her eyes...

paulus

10 Dec 2014

Dawn

The sky is bright'ning as the night retreatsThe meadows and the fields still hide in mistThe dewy grass is waiting to be kissedBy sun's first ray that orange heaven bleeds The sunlight strengthens until it defeatsThe darkness with its never yielding fistR...

paulus

9 Dec 2014

Insane

It is twisting, winding, grinding, utter chaos rules my brainAll those thoughts run through eachother, they are driving me insaneWill she, won't she, love me, hate me, keep me, leave me, run or stayHoping, fearing, quiet, rearing, close, so close, but far...

paulus

6 Dec 2014

Thinking about Christmas

Thoughts I already posted on the forum, but still wanted to share

When I was growing up, Christmas used to be a magical time to me. I was raised a catholic and we went to church every Sunday. Christmas then however, was more than just religious. It was a true family celebration, and on Christmas day, our family of five,...

paulus

6 Dec 2014

Just words

for the woman, that enchanted me

just words that pass my screenbut there has never beenin all my life beforea thing that I crave morejust letters on a stringyet they make my heart singthey make my soul loose weightthey make me feel so greatthat is what those words dobecause they come fro...

paulus

6 Dec 2014

Cold Turkey

down, discovered an addictiondown, a serious inflictiondown, there's something I can't getdown, my palms begin to sweatdown, my hands begin to shakedown, my mind begins to flakedown, don't know if I'll survivedown, without it in my lifedown, it's hidden,...

paulus

2 Dec 2014

How can I explain?

How can I explain to my kidsWhy their mommy is not hereTo celebrate my birthdayOr Christmas, or New Year How can I tell my childrenOf the phase our lives are inThat what we shared was dyingThat the bond was wearing thin How do you say you love themJust as...

paulus

1 Dec 2014

Ebola

Impossible to ignore

My papa diedMy mama diedWere carried offBy men in whiteScary men with masksI don't feel wellBut I must dwellIn dust and dirtA lonely hellThey see, but no-one asks They will not aidThey are afraidThat I'm the oneTo seal their fateWith sickness they all fea...

paulus

29 Nov 2014

clicketyclick clicketyclack

inspired by a picture

clicketyclick clicketyclackiron wheels on an iron trackrolling through the darkest nightrolling her away from frightfar away from the abusethe violence the words he'd usefrom broken vases broken bonesfrom threats that sound in undertonesshe carries only w...

paulus

28 Nov 2014

Roberto

Hello my friend, you're getting oldYour hair is turning greyYou still don't show that in your strideIn how you face the dayYou came to us, just skin and bonesA shaking bag of fearYou cowered down and hid away If anyone came nearYour body marked with cigar...

paulus

27 Nov 2014

Pit

There's a pit that I fell intoI'm still falling, it's so deepAnd I cannot stop this tumblingCause the walls are smooth and steep It has made me lose my visionOnly one thing I see clearIt was Her that made me stumbleshe made all else disappear She keeps pu...

paulus

25 Nov 2014

Ramble

I have no inspirationjust don't know what to writethere isn't any poemthat wants to come out rightYet I can not endure thatI have to hold a penand when it touches paperit starts to flow againjust random thoughts and picturesand words, all roaming freeI'm...

paulus

22 Nov 2014

Morning

As the morning slowly brightens I sit and contemplate the silence And the darkness that surrounds me As a blanket, snug and tight Knowing I must let the day come Though reluctant, so I hold on For as long as I am able To the remnants of the night.