The sun starts to rise, I gaze at the sky. The beautiful hues of orange and pink stretch out like a masterpiece painted just for me. I wonder where he is. I wonder what he’s doing. I wonder if he’s happy. I wonder if thoughts of me cross his mind. I inhale deeply, a lonely steadying breath. I wonder if he is staring at the same sky. My sky. The thought we may sit beneath the same sky provides comfort to my aching heart. I...

Dear Ben, On my Bible app, I was reminded that God will satisfy my needs in a scorching land and will strengthen my frame. This land is my body and my soul. So I have asked, even if I feel I don't deserve it, for Him to make me whole again. With you, my body and soul woke up to sensations I have already forgotten. I did not know that your voice would hold me like how a child would want to be held—trusting, longing, and fo...

My heart broke today. This isn’t the first time it’s shattered into tiny pieces. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. In the darkness, I see the fragments glimmer in the light. My heart has been here before, splintered into jagged shards. This time, it’s different. I broke it. I wielded the devastating blow. Knowingly, purposefully, all by myself. I made the choice, this time. The most painful choice, this time. A choi...

The day I said goodbye My life crashed I felt worthless I felt trashed. The day I said goodbye I prayed for the truth You kept your mask You hid from me the sooth. The day I said goodbye I lost my faith I no longer knew you It was like you're a wraith. The day I said goodbye I tried not to cry The pain was too much I wished I'd just die. The day I said goodbye I lost hope Gone are our dreams I might just pull the rope. Th...

I thought you were the one. The one who would love me And take care of my heart. Love denied once again. I still feel the pain, hurt, and suffering From past and present relationships. Where time and time and time again I exposed my mind, my heart, my soul… Only to feel the cold steel dagger From an unaffectionate lover, that wears a façade Laced with poison dreams and romance That is meant to kill the rose before it bloo...

You found me in the dark, A topographic map of my trauma Covered my body for you to see What a strange discovery you had made Extended your hope to me Lulled into a false sense of security Reached into my chest, ripped out my heart Just to watch it beat...for you The kindest words I've ever known, Have turned into vicious whispers The sweetest sounds I've ever heard Have turned into malicious echoes Expecting the hate to...

after one week,here are my observations.The Lord works in his way.We are here as long as he wishes.I see Marcie Smith everywhere.I feel you in my thoughts.You feed my soul.You are my guide now on my journey.Took till Thursday to return to our bed.I drink my  coffee as I talk to the news.Casper still looks for you.Your winter cap his newest toy.Hard to eat for one.Way to much time on my hands.Waiting for your Red Cardinal...

You caught my attention right from the start;It wasn't long before you captured my heart;Years later, we've been through so very much;We've not had it easy, we've had it quite rough;We've both been stubborn; there's no doubt;Until recently it seemed we could work it out;No matter the depth of my feelings for you,If you don't feel as deeply, there's not much I can do;There's a distance between us like never before;No matte...

You were the sun that burned my skin because I trusted once again;Your words were like stars that fell from the sky, Only you know how often you uttered a lie;With your smooth talk and promises, you had me believing;Though I realized too late you were only deceiving;But I can't really blame you; I should have seen from the start,You were only an actor, playing a part;When you spoke of the future, I did not readily see;Tha...

Broken heart yet again, same old lies with a different spin;Hopes and dreams kept on hold, after all that time it grew old;To think I'd loved you all those years, pushed aside all my fears;Of never having your love returned, another painful lesson learned. 

Lonely hours into the night, battling tears and losing the fight;Broken heart that few will see; shattered spirit inside of me;Serene facade, despair within; pondering life, as it would have been;Growing old I can foresee, a dismal road ahead of me;Time moves on, memories to hold; An empty world as my life unfolds. 

Looking into my heart, I wonder what you will see. You won't see Love and you won't see flowers. You won't see something pretty You will see something Dark You will see something evil Something so unreal Something so cruel You will see the real pain I feel because I can't hide it on the inside I can't hide if you are already looking into my heart What is it that you want to see What is it, do you think you will see you wo...

Pathways to new lovers Lit by pale moonlight. Whispers of desire echo Their hunger in the night. Endless devotion promised Comes from deep within Perpetual affections are Journeys we freely begin. Desire burns in endless flames, Enraged passion to our core, Trickling sweat, molten lava Is when I became yours. Our journey suddenly halted, The scales heavy on one side. For me there was no warning Your devotion, it had died....

I will never again. Why you ask? Because I keep getting hurt by those who promise not to hurt me. I’ll never open up again, and give my heart to anyone. There are those who are never meant to be loved, and I suppose I’m one. I know my friends will tell me I’m foolish, and that I do deserve love. But, I know better. I've been used, abused, hurt, lied and painfully broken hearted. I've put my heart out there on the line to...

You know what? I trusted you. I let my guard down because you told me you didn't want to be like my exes. You told me you wanted to be different. You made me promises from day one. You kept telling me to trust you, because you weren't going to hurt me like the others. You told me I was too good to be hurt like that. That J-P was a foolish man, and didn't know what he was losing, when he left me. That when M-D left me, he...