The word 'divorce' was becoming more and more frequent in his mind, as though pervading his consciousness like an unwelcome image, which to Neil Parker, it was. He had just ended a phone conversation with his wife. It was an argument over how much she was spending. It was quite petty really, considering it was simply about buying extra food for their dog. Neil had said they didn’t need it, as there was plenty to last unti...

Wondering if you would still know my name or who I was if I saw you in Heaven? I know I don’t belong there and I need to continue to honour that promise you had me make all those years ago, and be strong like you asked and to continue on in whatever I find myself undertaking. I know there is no more pain or tears there in Heaven, and would you still be the same person I knew before both of you ran out of summers in ’92 an...

            Growing Up Ranch Chapter 7 My Parents“Growing Up Ranch” or growing up period isn’t possible without parents. Because of the ranch, however, my relationship with these two special people was unusual. I was blessed with a full set of two and a stable home compared to many, but our special circumstances did make for big differences.Because the ranch was by western standards a micro-ranch, my Dad was often absent...

Chills have come racing down my spine as I sit here and with shaking hands I know that everything is about understanding, and feeling the chills raging like a storm in my mind spreading like a fever through my heart down to my legs. Time to let go of fears and wondering who will stand with me if and when I breakdown? I know all I think and say seems to be understated with dreams or is something I have read, with dreams no...

Chapter 26 Praise the Elf God Dalelana.Rique was trying to keep her eyes out for any other traps as she lead the group of five.  She couldn't help thinking what had happened was her fault they had lost Lowenna, and then Azmil so soon after.  She had convinced everyone to come here.  She was so sure this was the right course of action, but now, she was starting to doubt it.  She didn't know how far or where the crystal was...

There is only darknessWhere all others hide their souls,A gravity so uglyWhere the air is rank and noisomeAnd the darkling ghosts hide screamingIn the humming, chasmic voidWhere she hides forgotten secretsIn the place she finds no floor.There are chains wrapped tight around herWhere vainglory's efforts fellIn existence ever futileWhen her life is reeking sicklyWhere the stink of rotting fettersDig in flesh so fat and weak...

Decades passedNothing lastsEverything changesVarying stagesAbsolute lifeChaotic strifeDo some things never change?Chasing demonsCollecting leminsLovings lostSoulless accostEnduring supportEndless retortDoes anything stay the same? Staggering endsPassing friendsWords unspokenTrusty tokenJilted heartsFalsified startsIt seems everything must changeEternal needsSowing seedsRavaged lustGrandiose trustRestless shiversCarefree w...

Happiness is horizontalJust lying hereWith her I hold her in my armsShe's warmInvitingBeautiful (of course) She breathesInOutInShiversI hold her closerKiss her cheekHer hair smells of springOf sunny daysBlue skies Bliss I close my eyesAnd I'mGone   

I'm feasting at this the table of life,No knife no fork just a blunt knife.My plate is filled and I can't get through fast enough,I'm filled but the waiter willing adds more stuff.There heaps of lovely meat burnt, black and bitter,There's vegetables too: all trying to turn me into a quitter.I eat as fast as I can but more obstacles appear,My plate seems to never get clear.I look around hoping for a fork or even a spoon,Th...

When I made you look I couldn't think about your pain,But now that its my turn I can hardly bear the strain.I feel our chemistry but it was born too late,A few weeks earlier I had let her in the gate.Now that she's gone and I'm free again,I see him around and know I'm hoping in vain.I see how wrong I was for thinking you'd wait,And I feel the pain for being too late.I keep wondering if I'll ever get your attention again,O...

 You were such a beautiful person So full of lifeYou were a mother, a sister, a friend You had a smile that was infectious As soon as you walked into a roomAll heads turned to look at youYou were so much more than just looksYour heart so full and giving Only you knew your sorrows You held them deep inside Never speaking of your sadness Until the last dayWhen you decided to leaveYou left behind many hopes and dreams You to...

Every Anniversary we had,Sending roses and cakes,Written greeting card with it,Beside an everyday kisses.Warm hugs when we sleepOf lovers afraid to be parted.Sincere I love yous are more thanThat of a million bunch of flowers.Sweetness soon fades awayLovely it may be, to be wilted soonFlowers are now given to cover a lieEnough to be doing again next year.The thought of loving forever,Just like the love of the personWhom t...

I never meant to do the things I did,But love made me do them.The words I said were not by my choice,Love made me say them. I never meant to say I quit,But love made me surrender,Taking that terrible hit. I never meant to smile as I walked away,But love made me do it,Saying he’d only hurt you if I stay. I never wanted to make you cry,Love made me do it,Saying it was better than living in a truthful lie. Love made me force...

Having a brother wasn’t unique to growing up “ranch,” but it will help you fill in the big picture if I introduce him to you. There were some big differences in how we related to each other because we grew up “Ranch” together, but far from other playmates.Paul came along when I was three years old. I was very used to being the special son/grandson. I got highly pampered and felt this was the norm. Imagine my shock when th...

My hands shake while I write this and I doubt if at all I'll be able to justify his battle with life, on my paper. Connaught Place couldn't have been a better place on New Year's Eve if he hadn't been there.Cold breeze and temperature around 6°C, he sat firm and stable on the marble bench which was no less cold than ice. His hands quivered, not because of the cold; age was the factor, I guess. I believe, he'd be in his la...