This is what I owe you My baby My Kate My memory It's that time of yearAgain I retreat Slowly First within closed curtains  Darkened rooms Under the covers There are no dates or calendars needed None that can define How my mind drifts My body slows I cannot eat You were real I smell your newness  In the oddest of places Hear you breathe The quickness of your heart  Beating Woke me last night My body knows For this month I...

You were in my life Every single day Then so suddenly You went away I do not understand the words Or how one can say It gets easier with each passing day I have a need to talk to you To see and feel your touch I smile as your presence Washes over me I feel you in my mind Your laughter in my heart Your spirit never leaves me We're only physically apart Someday we will be together If the gods are kind Till then my darling A...

The past always returnsA cycle unbrokenAnd repeating patternsLeaving behind the burnsLoves, friends and familyPeople I cannot hateDecide I'm unworthyLike some flaw within meOne too many failuresThe mistakes piling onA question that fracturesThere are no more answersThe voices speaking insideThat I cannot be lovedCold and brutal and snideAnd there's nowhere to hideThese voices cannot be mineI do have love to giveBut this v...

I went away todayDriving in my carI thought of you against meHow warm and strong you are I went away todayTalking on the phoneGripped by those blue velvet eyesYet I was all alone I went away todayGoing through the mailThinking how you tie your tieYour collar slightly frayed I went away todayYou never left my mindThe way you call me “lover”The way our thoughts entwine You went away today.

It takes so long To recover and heal From a physical attack It’s so hard to deal The physical pain Will eventually go But life is never the same Yet not many will know Fear will always linger Deep within my heart A simple tap upon the shoulder Might cause me to start Try as I might Memories often creep in I will never truly escape The lingering terror within Forgetting is not an option Try as hard as I might Memories and...

God's Plan Have you ever loved someone, so much That you hurt way down deep inside And when once you thought you would lose them You sat right down and cried Then one day you came to realize That your tears didn't change a thing That everything is going to run its course In spite of the sorrow it brings You can't expect life to go the way that you want Give you everything that you need Life goes on the way God has planned...

Somewhere, I lost itBut I’m glad it’s goneNo need to fretOver what I’ve done wrong There is a freedomWhen you don’t need to tryA certain freedomTo just say good-bye No effort neededNothing missedLight of heartContented to drift Fine if you’re hereBut not for too longFine if you’re goneI’ll just move on How did I get here?Not really sureWill this go on?Will my freedom endure? Are there othersWho feel this way?Nothing compe...

Within the first week after I took delivery of my new car, I stepped in gum. It got on the carpet. Not on the mat, but on the carpet just beneath the door. I was upset. I got most of it off, but there was still a mark on the light tan carpet. It was a pretty car: diamond white, with a light tan interior. My favorite is white, with a light grey interior, but the last two cars I ended up getting were white with tan. I still...

You felt itSo did IWe both know what it wasA sound that isn’t heard  Signals the end of love A mating call reversedCoupling undoneA sound that isn’t heardThat says we’re not in love A note that speaks of emptinessLike an abandoned homeNot of an open spaciousnessBut something there, then gone With each two, it is differentNever twice the sameBut clearly recognizableWhen it strikes again A knell of such finalityA whole that...

It's often the same. I listen to music I know affects me. Really affects me. It has before and will again. And I allow it, because of the desperately needed catharsis and release. Do you understand? Oh, god. I'm shuddering in sobs once more. In shuddering sobs I play out this late night reverie. I do it to myself, and I feel a washing away. Because, you know. I really loved that person. That person who said they loved me....

Love weaves a web of lossthrough my coreas I covet you. Perpetual days of torment,unfinished thoughts of youtaunt my past and future. Silent cries ride the backof an impossible avowal,always only a wish. My heart wails in your absence,I miss you incurably,I will wait patiently for you. You are not mine,yet I can't let go.My sorrow is a waterfall. A torrent, a flood,a river of miserywhisks me away. Drowning in torment,you...

May I sit here by your sideAnd just watch you be?May I linger for a whileEnjoying you with me? May I see you make that smileThat you used to do?  The one where you look sillyThat we named after you? May I breathe the air you breatheAs we share vintage wine?And may you tell the joke you lovedThat you told all the time? May you let the game blare onWith decibels galoreThat I’m sure the Martians cheerWhen the Bruins score? A...

Sweet curved cheekPointed chinLashes lowerSatin skinLashes raiseLips form a smileGraceful gestureSparkling eyes Fine arched browsEngaging poseLanguid curlsClassic noseMellow voiceEnchanting laughCamouflage the Horned Asp Medusa raging in her soulHer gaze transforms victims to stoneWhen she decides to have her wayShe petrifies her chosen prey A glance wherein her baleful eyeNo spell exists to rectifyNo way to shield unwitt...

I was whole,  A whole person  Before you came along. You caressed my smooth skin,  Admired my silky softness.  Kissed and licked  Then declared, I am yours to keep. Everywhere you touched  Left marks.  Marks I knew would never disappear, Yet I loved them all the same. Each day that passed,  You left more marks,  Marks of love, you said.  I embraced them, embraced your love. The marks began to hurt When you no longer cares...

Why is it the jester smiles?Has he been known to cry?What lies behind that smile?What is that darkness behind his eyes?Does he not tire of his jokes?Are his legs sore from dancing?Did he ever lose his voiceFrom those songs that he's singing?Why do they call him a fool?Why must they snicker behind his back?Why must he stand there and listenUnder scrutiny and attack?I see your grin is getting long.Your jokes have no punch.T...